God’s love, which is stronger than death, is causing me to continue walking the path of the mission the Lord has given me (John 6:1–15). “At that very time some Pharisees came and said to Him, ‘Leave this place and go somewhere else. Herod wants to kill You.’ He replied, ‘Go tell that fox, “I will keep driving out demons and healing people today and tomorrow, and on the third day I will reach My goal.” In any case, I must press on today and tomorrow and the next day—for surely no prophet can die outside Jerusalem! Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were not willing. Look, your house is left to you desolate. I tell you, you will not see Me again until you say, “Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord” (Luke 13:31–35). ...
더 이상 홀로 감당할 수 없는 마음의 무거운 짐으로 인해 ... 마음에 있어야 할 기쁨은 없고 오히려 마음의 괴로움이 있기에 하나님의 은혜를 깨닫지 못할 뿐만 아니라 " 왜 ?" 라는 질문 속에서 더 이상 홀로 감당할 수 없는 마음의 무거운 짐으로 인해 하나님께 ' 즉시 나를 죽여 더 이상 내가 고난 당함을 내가 보지 않게 해주세요 ' 라고 간구할 수 있습니다 ( 참고 : 민수기 11:10-15).