이 성탄 계절에 사도 바울은 두기로를 특별히 골로새 교회 성도들에게 보냈다(골4:8)하는 말씀을 묵상할 때 하나님 아버지께서 우리를 "이처럼 사랑하사 독생자를 주셨"다(gave)(요3:16)는 말씀과 더불어 "자기 아들을 아끼지 아니하시고 우리 모든 사람을 위해 내주"셨다(gave up)(롬8:32)는 말씀과 "그는 우리를 위하여 자신을 버리"셨다(gave Himself up)(엡5:2)는 말씀을 연관해서 묵상하게 되었습니다. 그리하였을 때 예수님께서 십자가상에서 "엘리 엘리 라마 사박다니"("나의 하나님, 나의 하나님, 어찌하여 나를 버리셨나이까 하는 뜻")(마27:46)라는 말씀도 생각났습니다. 사랑하시고 기뻐하시는 아들 예수님을 십자가에 버리시기까지 우리를 이처럼 사랑하시는 하나님으로 인해 우리도 예수님과 복음을 위하여 우리 목숨을 잃을 수 있길 기원합니다(막8:35). https://youtu.be/amBwOJJrKxs?si=B6DoBllFE_Il7U-p
The Lord who gives peace to the afflicted heart "He was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth" (Isaiah 53:7). I was afflicted. My heart was painful and heavy. Whenever I think of her whom I love in the Lord, I was very stressed and I had a sour stomach. It was painful for me to see her suffering so much. I didn’t know what to do and how to help her so I prayed for her. But even while I was praying for her, my heart continued to be heavy and painful. Sometimes it was so hard to see her going through painful moments of her life. And I had the urge to avoid her. Although I knew in my head that she was the one who was suffering the most, but my heart was so painful that I even had a selfish idea of avoiding her. I even thought ...